Death of course is always a part of life, but here in
Nalerigu at the BMC it just seems more real somehow, more present than back
home. I am not sure why that is
completely. Losing a patient always
weighs heavy on your heart and I have lost patients in the US before but
somehow here it hurts more. I think a
lot of it has to do with the fact that although I know that I did my best for the
patient, I know that it is not the best that the World has to offer. It is hard to watch people suffer and die
when I know if there were better resources available they might live. The little girl I operated on last week for a
Typhoid perforation passed away. Ultimately
from sepsis and respiratory failure, things we would have been able to support
her through in the US with medications and a respirator. When I showed up in the morning her bed was
empty, striped clean. I can’t quite
describe the feeling when you walk into the ward and encounter an empty
bed. The mattresses here are black and
so in a ward with painted walls, full of colorful cloth and patients strewn
all over other beds and on the floors, it is just a glaring black emptiness . .
. saying death was here last night. No
matter how many times I have encountered an empty bed, I still hope that for
some reason the patient was just moved.
I go to the nursing office to ask, just to hear, “The patient has died.” Blunt and to the point. To me sometimes the hospital staff seems
caviler about death, but I know they are not and it is because they see so much
doing what they do every day. We have all learned that you have to compartmentalize the death we see because you have to move on because truthfully,
there is another sicker patient right around the corner that needs you at your
best.
Life is hard in Ghana, especially in the poorer North of
the country. But what really impresses
me is the amazing optimism people here have.
For a pessimistic, like myself, it is truly awe inspiring. How do they muster such hope and confidence
things will get better right around the corner?
The ultimate optimist was my friend Solomon, who unfortunately passed
away this winter. I don’t know how old
Solomon was, in fact I don’t think Solomon even knew his age. When you would ask Solomon a question he did
not know the answer to he would just flash his broad smile, giggle and look
away. That is what he did when I once asked
him his age. I think he was most likely
in his early to mid-twenties though. I
met Solomon my first week at the BMC in 2012.
Solomon had sickle cell disease and had developed a chronic wound on his
right lower leg. By the time, I met him
he had already failed many skin grafts.
The surgeon at the time was handing off patients to me before he left
and introduced us. Solomon would stop by
the outpatient clinic almost every week to just say hello and greet me,
eventually he hung around the outpatient clinic so much that we put him to work
as an unofficial translator. Every month
I would see him as a patient and evaluate his wound. Since he already had failed so many skin grafts,
after talking with the other surgeons that knew Solomon, we all decided we would
not offer him any more surgeries. We all
knew what the outcomes of more skin grafts would be and it would just be
putting him at risk for operative complications. Solomon however would not give up hope that
one day his wound would heal. He would
come to clinic and beg me to perform another skin graft and he was always sure
this next one would work. He had a way
about him . . . he would smile at you and say “Please Doctor!” Because of that I broke the promise and tried
one more time, but of course the skin graft failed. Over the years his leg had become slightly
deformed and he walked with a limp. He
had dropped out of school and did not finish his education, although he spoke
very good English. He didn’t have a job
and I frankly don’t know how he fed himself, but he would talk about how when
his leg healed he would get married and have a family and work. He was absolutely sure all of this would
happen . . . that right around the corner life would be better. Last January, Solomon approached me and asked
me to amputate his leg. He said that he
was tired of the wound and he thought that maybe it would be better to have an
amputation and get a new leg. I was
shocked that he was finally resolved that his wound might not heal. I could see he had it all planned out in his
mind though . . . I would amputate, he would easy peasy get a new prosthesis (very
difficult to get in Ghana), then next would come job, education, and family. I talked with him for a long time about what
a life altering decision this would be.
I was extremely worried that because of his sickle cell he would most
likely not heal at his amputation site.
He would have lost his leg and his independence, just to have a new
wound to manage. He was positive all
would be well. I wanted him to think
about it more and I told him if next year he still wanted the amputation I would
do it and then try my hardest to get him set up with a prosthesis. I never imagined I wouldn’t see him on my
return to Nalerigu this year. No one is sure what exactly happened, but while he was down South in his village it was
reported the he had a seizure and died.
He and his smile are most definitely missed around the outpatient clinic.
On a lighter note, when I think of Solomon, I think of his
smile, laugh, generosity, optimism, and when I had the funniest miscommunication
of my entire time living in Ghana and I always smile and chuckle a bit. I think that is the best way to remember someone. I wrote about our episode of miscommunication
in a past blog entitled, “Say What?” But
for easy I have copied and pasted that blog post below. Hopefully it will make you smile.
Say What? Posted
10/4/2013
Between the different accents and the “Ghanaian” English that is spoken, miscommunications often occur and they are usually quite funny. Here are a few examples:
There is a young man, in his early 20’s, I inherited as a patient from another long-term missionary when I moved to Nalerigu. He has a chronic wound on his leg. He came to me one day saying that he needed to talk to me . . .
S (in a hushed tone): Doctor, could you help me count my pennies?
Me: Why do you need help with that?
S: My mother never helped me.
Me: S, you know how to count, why don’t you just count them yourself.
S (looking confused): When I was young my pennies was never counted and I would like to count them, could you help me?
Me (looking confused): I don’t understand, there are no pennies in Ghana.
S (looking more confused): My pennies, my pennies, when I was a small boy my mother never helped me count my pennies!
Me (looking at S with a quizzical stare): What are you talking about!
S (now yelling a bit and talking slowly): My mother never count my pennies when I was a small boy!
Me (with an enlightened face): Ohhhhh, she never CUT your PENIS?
S: Yes! She never count my pennies and I would like you to help me count my pennies now.
Me (relieved to be finally getting out of this confusing conversion): Okay, I think we can arrange a date for that.
There is a middle aged man, C, who guards our volunteer house during the day. He tries to speak English, but it is very poor and his accent is horrible. Every day C was going to one of the long term volunteers, Michael, and telling him that he was angry. Michael would tell him that he was very sorry for his anger and that they should pray that God would resolve whatever it was in his life so that he could get over his anger. They would stand on Michael’s front porch and pray that God would take C’s anger away. This went on for a few weeks time. One day someone else was at Michael’s house when C stopped by to tell him about his anger. They prayed, C walked away, and then the guest turned to Michael and asked him why he prayed for him, it seemed a lot easier to just give food to a guy that is coming up and telling you that he is HUNGREY.
Many of our common phrases are not understood here. For example my neighbor, T, was talking to one of the drivers who makes the 2.5 hour trip to Tamale about three times a week. T told him that he makes the trip so often he must know the road very well. The driver agreed and then T said he knew the road so well he could probably make the trip with his eyes closed. The driver looked at T with a very serious and concerned face and said, “Oh no, that would be very dangerous.”
I can envision Solomon in your description. A beautiful story.
ReplyDeleteI remember Solomon. So very sad to hear.
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